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Here I sit alone, across from you surrounded by strangers, talking as if they know life I shake my head in disgust, for truly they know nothing¡¦ As I stare into your eyes I¡¯m thinking about my shitty little life and what I¡¯ve become¡¦ I notice your lips moving but I Cant hear anything but my Voices bickering back and forth about murder and Rape, Lust and torture, my past and Sadly my present, I fight the demons daily, and from some we¡¯ve come to an understanding¡¦ Your eyes glazed and slightly red, Deep black pupils Surrounded by a sapphire green retinas, Black eyeliner around the perimeter highlighting it all, your lips slightly parted, encased in crimson red lipstick, outlined in black. Sad and Depressed is the look you chose tonight, Long black Boots, Covered by a Long Black Velvet Dress that encases a ghostly white frame, everything in portions, Cuffs to the wrist, Perfection in a blacken case¡¦ Hours I sit staring at you frame, trying to find flaws, that don¡¯t exist at least in my eyes, but sadly my are so flawed in comparison life is slow and painful never ending never forgiveing, my scars tell my story at least the ones I don¡¯t hide from the public eyes.
this is one of the sweetest things
that someone has ever written about me
she sat alone in the room, contemplating all the reasons why she shouldn't. Yet only one reason was on her mind. It was only him who could truly save her. Despite his demons, he had her at hello. She continued to relive the memories, the ones that could not be taken form her. The mindless chatter over corporate coffee seemed to end too quickly. From the "hello" to the "how is your life these days", all still ingrained in her mind. She thought that she would never talk to him again for her own fears. And soon she would realize that she couldn't live without him. That night that he made her crawl over the center counsel of his truck just for that one kiss that would make her heart melt, that was something that she would never forget. All those nights sitting with him, drinking coffee till all hours of the morning, and playing hangman cause there was nothing better to do. Those were the ones that she would cherish forever. He came over one day to help her. He bandaged her open scars and asked her why this always happened to him. A lot was taken from her when someone she thought that she could trust betrayed everything she believed in. He was there for her. She laid in bed with him many a night and could feel no safer than she did at that very moment. And she worshiped every human instinct that was created each night they were together. To her, it was like they were the only people left in the world. No worries to end the happiness that she was feeling. She knew he was the one for her, she had given him her whole heart and all her love. But soon she had to realize that he could never be what she wanted, he could only be her friend. Lost and feeling incomplete, she asked him to take her to the airport, she needed to leave. She knew she may never see him again, she knew that moment could very well be their last, she held on to him tighter than ever. With each minute the tears became stronger and the pain was obvious. He drove off and she knew that she could never let him go. He was the one and always would be to her. She is now left with a raccoon, the memories, and a heart that is both broken and full of "what ifs". She wakes up scare and he isn't there. She calls him, his voice seems to calm her for the time being, and she smiles. Even a simple moment like that made her forget what was wrong in the first place. But by the end of the night I only want to be with you papa bear.
truth be told, i care about you more than i should, and whether you want me to stop caring, i cant and i wont. Its not a switch that i can just turn off, i would if i could for your sake. You have taught me how to love again and to never love again. And i don't regret a single moment of it. I am willing to live my life without you and without anybody else. Cause whether you want to hear it or not, i don't want anybody else. They just simply could not compare to you. Something that i wish i could help but i just cant. You are my everything.
♥ the memories of you
are all that i have ♥
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